5 Fleming

Not bad at all,
hahaha if you know what it means,
although stressful, pressurized, but,
i learned that, with all these,
it became my pushing force to get me ass out of the computer seat and start studying !!

If i were in other class today,
how and where am i now?
Probably playing facebook pet society

And so, i'm glad that God had put me into this aircond class(also let me enjoy aircond) to let me be able to increase my perseverance in studies, and also let me increase more knowledge(especially chemistry which our teacher is truly awesome in teaching chemistry).

so i hereby say thanks to my awesome God for letting me have a chance to sit into the best class,

and i hope that i wont in the last position of the class.

May God give me wisdom, perseverance, and good memory..><

Valentines day, il San Valentino

Tomorrow it is,
Il San Valentino,
Tomorrow, The whole world is celebrating it,
Pink gifts, red roses, bears, chocolates are all over,
Even I can smell the smell of love in the air!!
Tonight, as the clock strikes 12 ,
"baby, I love you for my whole life and I'm not gonna let you go,", "honey, I love you:)" "my hubby, I love you no matter what happens."

All these sweet message texts will be sent all around the world,
All around every corner of the world,
Tomorrow,
Hands in hands, heart to heart, skin to skin, lips to lips,
All the feelings of love pouring out to one another, as if like waterfall pouring unending water from the mountain top,


My best friend, she had prepared her own present for him, chocolates, and him, invites her to a candle light dinner in a cozy romantic restaurant,

I envy them, I'm so envious of them,
I'm so jealous of those couples who are able to celebrate formally,
Where they can touch each others hand, look at each other in the eye,
Intimating..

I know that one day it'll be my turn,
But I'll have to simply wait.

Some people in the world are unable to celebrate the day,
Some of them hates valen's,
As they graded themselves "forever alone",

As for me, I'm not "forever alone" and also unavailable,

Believe it or not, I'm giving a present to somebody far far away, where I cannot touch, nor communicate(exclude technologies like skype)

I'm grateful for this:) and I'm happy to buy that present for you,

Appreciate it, love it, take good care of it and love me:)

Heartless

Selfish, arrogant, irresponsible,
Heartless young woman laying on the sheets of bed,
Thinks of her results in school more than anything,
Without giving a superficial chance for others to give in,
Especially the special someone,

Maybe that tmyound woman is stressed out,
Heard that she got scold by her mother that she is so irresponsible( for not washing the damn dishes),
She felt cold after that person told her he doesn't wanna find her anymore,
She does not know how to do,
To cry,
To shout,
To hit her head in the walls?
All the stress, combined with anger produced due to mother scolding her irresponsible, sadness from special someone,
It's a whole lot of 3 negative combination,
How do we count that?
-9a(is unknown, probably a=1,2,3...)-5a(number of anger which is kept inside all along)-4a(degree of sadness varies)

-9a-5a-4a=-18a







why aren't you answering me anymore?
What am I supposed to do?
I can't study because I am sad, but I have to study because I had to, I have no mood but to have mood to study, this is just torturing me.

A terrible mistake

Last night,
As aunt blood flows,
Laying on my flower bed
This is my biggest mistake ever.

Phoon promised to skype at 12
I lay on my bed at 11,
Accidently dozed off,
And woke 1:00 am sharp.

I saw the messages,
"Dear dear I'm going to sleep le",
I texted him immediately,
But I was too late,
I made my biggest mistake,
I missed phoon so much,
I hated aunt flow,
I can't see him,
I can't have enough time revising,

*sobs* 1:28 am